I'm Sorry You Were Thinking I Would Steal Your Fire

So I'm fat. Even though I lost about 5 lbs recently. Still fat. Still need to lose AT LEAST 15 more lbs so I can feel marginally happy. Bleh. There is a part of me that might even welcome that complete isolation and sadness I felt at the beginning of the year because at least I lost like 15-20 lbs in about 2 months. Probably because I was so depressed I wasn't eating.

It just sucks to try on clothes that a year and a half ago fit me awesome and now I look like a bacon-wrapped sausage. And I don't even like bacon that much.

Sure, I could join a gym. Except I can't because I don't have money. I wanted to take Zumba classes and even though I found some for $30 a month for 4-5 classes, I don't even have enough for THAT. I could just do a workout DVD I already own. Or run on the treadmill and use the stationary bike at my grandma's. Or run at the park during the week when it's free. It just seems that I cannot find the motivation anywhere. Even on these days when I am totally bummed about my weight. Monday may actually be a possibility, though, since I have to wake up early anyway for a job interview. Because even only exercising 3 times a week is better than my current 0 times a week.

And I definitely need to control my eating, especially my late-night snacks. And I know I would be thrilled if I managed to lose 7 lbs by the end of the year, which I think is still doable. Plus, when I get into grad school (hopefully!), I would feel so much better if I was slimmer. So being down 20 -25 lbs by my birthday next year is the final goal, which breaks down to around 3 lbs a month. Sounds simple enough...

In non-whiney news, tomorrow is brunch day with Wendy and Anthony. Excited to see them and hit up a nice restaurant with killer food, even if I am not happy with my stupid dress. At least my eyebrows, jewelry and shoes are great. Also, I have a lot of charities I will be showcasing soon! All thanks to Glamour (of course) and their 31 Days of Giving; I won't be doing all of them, but I do think I will be doing about 2 a week until the end of the year (which, by the way, there are only SEVEN weeks left of 2010!). So you can look out for those possibly tomorrow or Monday.

Because I am lazy and need a pick-me-up, here is another survey (and I'm sure you thought I had run out...)

*Post title from The Strokes' "Heart in a Cage"



1. What time did you get up this morning?
9:45 AM, which is nothing short of a miracle since I went to sleep at 1:30

2. How do you like your steak?
Well-done, except for filet mignon which I can manage Medium Well as long as it's butterfly-cut

3. What was the last movie you saw at the cinema?
Hmmmmmmmmmm, I think it was Inception?

4. What is your favorite TV show?
House

5. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
London would be awesome

6. What did you have for breakfast?
a Capri-Sun and some gum- breakfast of almost champions! lol

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Italian, though I do love Chinese too

8. What foods do you dislike?
SOUP

9. Favorite Place to eat?
Texas de Brazil because their sausage is sooooooo good (which I wrote on a comment card once lol)

10. Favorite Dressing?
Light Ranch

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
Pontiac G6

12. What are your favorite clothes?
Well my favorite shoes are black gladiator heels, though my camel cage booties are a close second. I also love my white Lucky jeans and my black high-waisted Express skirt

13. Where would you visit if you had a chance.
EVERYWHERE

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
1/2 Full

15. Where would you want to retire?
Not sure, but I want to go on one of those around the world cruises!

16. Favorite time of day?
Sunset

17. Where were you born?
Miami

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Football!

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
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20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
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21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
----- (Obviously took this from Facebook....)

22. Bird watcher?
Nah

23. Are you a morning person or night person?
Night, I'm a super zombie

24. Do you have any pets?
Coco! The best little fat MaltiPoo ever

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
I got my eyebrows done today (finally), and they. look. ballerrrrrr

26. What did you want to be when you were little.
A doctor. Also a dinosaur. Still would like to be a dinosaur.

27. What is your best childhood memory?
I remember being chased by an ostrich once. It was terrifying and hilarious all at once

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
Dog ftw

29. Are you married?
Hahahaha no.

30. Always wear your seatbelt?
Yes, even if it's across the parking lot

31. Been in a car accident?
Yes

32. Any pet peeves?
People that chew very loudly.

33. Favorite pizza toppings?
Cheese, ham, black olives

34. Favorite flower?
Tulips and lilies and peonies

35. Favorite ice cream?
Sweet Cream

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Jack in the Box! :(

37. How many times did you fail your drivers test
Once, but that guy hated everyone

38. From whom did you get your last email?
Myself lol

39. Which store would you choose to max out your card?
Maybe Express or Forever 21

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
I spontaneously drive random places often

41. Like your job?
I like not working, which is my current job, because I am lazy, but I definitely don't like being broke, so no.

42. Broccoli?
Yuck.

43. What is your favorite vacation?
I think I had the most-est fun when I visited Chey in Houston last year!

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Mom

45. What are you listening to right now?
There are like 8 parties going on around my house today apparently, but also "Neighbors Know My Name" by Trey Songz

46. What is your favorite color?
Purple

47. How many tattoos do you have?
3, but I want like 3 more!

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
AAAAHHHH!

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
This isn't even the last question but it is 9:02 PM

50. Coffee drinker?
STARBUCKS!