WorryWorryRantNervesUghhhhh

I'm pretty sure that title about sums it up.

No? Oh ok...

So, tomorrow is the big job interview for what could potentially be my first big-girl job (Texas job was in a call center..no challenge really, and Census job was temporary, if a bit crazy). Besides all the nerves I have as to whether I could even DO the job well (honestly, I freaked out about using Outlook since I've been working on Mac OS for the past 3+ years, and that is something I could probably pick up in 15 minutes), the interview is making me nervous too. I don't really know the department, what my actual job entails, how technical/scientific it will get and whether they will make me take a typing test and all that garbage.

The job itself has me nervous. I hate going into things blindly, not being the best at it, so being on a learning curve will be difficult. Getting myself back into a routine will be another challenge, but it'll be nice to actually feel useful and earn money. However, the job seems like it will be very time-consuming. I figure I will still be working 40 hrs a week, but it doesn't seem like the kind of place where I could take time off or work less hours and go to school. Part-time school may still be an option, depending on the two schedules, but school is still at the top of my list. PT is not a big deal, but I may at some point stop working and study full-time or do a graduate assistantship. But they'd want someone that can stay in the job "long term," not just 2 years and slip off...which is what I was thinking of doing. I don't think that is the kind of job I'd want to have forever or the kind of place I'd want to work forever. I have other plans that I'd like to follow through on, so it just kinda sucks that from the get-go that will be an issue.

Plus, since I got the interview through a connection, I obviously wouldn't want to leave on bad terms and hurt her chances and connections either. But I also need a job, and I figure any professional would be understanding about moving on to bigger and better things because I'm sure if they were offered the opportunity, they'd take it too.

Granted, a lot of this is just wishful thinking because I haven't even HAD the interview yet, so I may not even get the job, or I may have to wait awhile before I hear back or start.

All in all, WorryWorryRantNervesUghhhhh. Make more sense now?

**Figured I would edit this and say that I know I should be grateful that I even have a job interview, which I am. I've been applying to jobs for nearly 2 months and this is among the first that have gotten back to me, and it is for a great position. And I know everyone has to make sacrifices and sometimes suffer through something to get something better. I just don't like how I feel like I am chained down there and it'd be terrible if I left to go to school. I guess my excitement has run out for this and the nerves and paranoia are taking over. Boo.